Until Your Love Broke Through

Have you ever been lost somewhere? So lost that you thought you may never find your way out or your way home? Maybe you lost hope and gave up on yourself. Maybe you thought you were too far gone. And maybe you didn't truly understand that there was a reason for you being lost. You couldn't see that the way was being shown to you so that when you meet another lost person you can help them find their way, not for self glory or to keep a score but because you have been to those dark places without hope and the commonness of the situation drives you to show the truth of how to escape "lost".  I have been lost before. I have felt lost and hopeless and selfish and disgusted with myself to a point where I could not see what else could come from it. "Beyond repare" is a thought that likes to sneak into the minds of such people. But this is not true. It was in that very moment when I thought I was so alone that the God of the universe called me by name to Himself. He wanted me. In the time when it looked as if no one wanted me, He did. He saved my life. And I am eternally grateful. So now I have a job to do. In this daily process of becoming more like Him, I am to show love and grace and mercy to the people around me who have yet to have their own "He wants me" moment. Not for myself, it has nothing to do with me. But my daddy told me once that we are just here to be beggars pointing the others to the food.

Waiting, waiting, waiting

I don't know if I've ever felt so lazy. Since moving to Colorado, my husband and I got jobs. His at a restaurant and mine at a pet store. He started his this week but my job has yet to begin. My days here have consisted of movies, cleaning, and texting or skyping or calling anyone who is willing to talk. I took a drug test for my job and the results have not been emailed to my manager. I have tried to call people at the lab and they tell me I can't do anything and that my manager has to call them. So until she decides to do that I'll be here. Blogging about feeling lazy! I better cherish this rest while I can! I have a feeling once I start I'll be working hard and long for a while. And I am so excited that I get the privilege to do that. I am so thankful for this job even if I'm not working it yet. I know there were several other people applying for the position I got but they chose me. I am so thankful.

My husband and I did get some goldfish though! They are nameless, sadly. Perhaps I'll think of some fitting names today? I have a feeling that I will be in trouble once I start working though. I went to talk to my manager and came home with two goldfish...only 13 cents each now. But later on who knows what I'll drag home. Especially since I will be spending entire days washing dogs. I love dogs. This could mean trouble. And as soon as it does, I'll post pictures and let you know! 

I can only hope trouble looks like this little guy!!

Im-possible

I woke up today without a worry only to have one thrust upon me. There are some days that I can feel the war around us raging inside my home, inside of me even. But the Lord makes it apparent to me that He is here. He aches to show me He is in control if I would only let Him. He continues to show me He will let me do whatever I want. If I choose to worry, He will let me. I will fill myself with doubt and anger and fear all by myself. It has nothing to do with Him giving me more then I can handle or anything like that. I do it all myself. But when I decide to let it all go, to throw the fear inside of me out the window and allow Him to take control He will do thinks I can not imagine. He could take control of me without my consent if He wanted, it's not that He couldn't do it. But He chooses to let me learn to give it to Him. Help, Joy, Peace, Love, Provision. All of these things come from Him. Every good thing comes from the Lord. I am still learning.

"Nothing is impossible, the word itself says "I'm possible!""- Audrey Hepburn


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wPLXIUOty1s
Faithful- Brooke Fraser

James Taylor

Let's see if you can guess what I want to talk about today. Yes, it is James Taylor. I dearly love his music. Since I was small I have liked him. My dad had a cd of his and I remember hearing it in the car. He has such a way of making music come alive and mean something special. There's just something about his songs that can make me feel at home and relaxed when it seems nothing else can.

My father-in-law gave me a cd of his that I didn't have yet when my husband went on a trip to another state for a week. I listened to it every night when I had to go to bed by myself and it made me feel as if I was a kid at home again. I'm going to go ahead and share with you my favorite song of his. You deserve the truth so here it is. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7qyJg4d8Ioc

Go now and soak it in. It'll only do you good. I should probably give you the link to my dads favorite song also. I love my daddy very much and every time I hear this song now I think of him.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iSkaEP2ZqbY

James wrote the song "Sweet Baby James" for his brother's new baby boy. And I love that about him. He said he needed a cowboy lullaby. I approve. I don't know if you heard or saw but Taylor Swift got to sing with him recently in one of her shows. I don't know if she realizes how lucky she is. I would LOVE to sing with James Taylor. That would be on my bucket list if I had one. Perhaps one day I will at least get to meet the man! Until then I'll keep listening and keep dreaming. 

Catching-up

So much has happened since my last post. It makes me laugh to think of who I was then, only a few months ago, and who I am today. Let me tell you what has happened. This will be a quick explanation so keep up please. I took that family vacation to Colorado that I so desperately didn't want to go on and it confirmed my worst fear! I was in love. So I came home from this trip. Then he came home to and asked my dad if he could marry me. My daddy said yes and we got married several months later.

Photo credit to Scott Cotton

So, was getting married enough to make this year crazy all on it's own? Probably but we wouldn't want to stop there! We have since moved to Colorado. We have been here for about two weeks and it is absolutely the most wonderful adventure I have ever been on. We have a new church, new jobs, and we are hoping soon for some new friends. I will admit there certainly have been some lonely days, but no regrets.

I was also able to bring several of my children. (plants) They have occupied a lot of my time waiting for my job to start and helped fill the void of friends for now. I say for now because one can only talk to their plants for a while till they realize they do not talk back, no jokes or advice. Nothing. 

So, to sum things up I will be picking this blog up to run with it as the wife of a soon to be fireman (more on that later) and a mother of the only children I have and will have for a while. There is a picture of all of the little boogers right up there. ^

Thanks for reading!