only the young

How does one deal with growing up? It's not how I expected it would be at all. Though, I am just as excited as I thought I would be. Lots of things are changing, so many good and a few bad. That's just how I like it. I don't enjoy the times where the bad out weighs the good. I'm thankful for all the days I have had for the past month or so. So many new and wonderful friends made. A few old friendships brought back to life. Who am I to want anything more? 

And have I even mentioned my garden yet? No! It's still a work in progress but has several flowers now. It's lovely. It is a place of rest for me. I recently found a picnic table and benches at a flea market that now reside in my resting place. Thanks to my job, which I am so glad I have. It's been interesting actually having money to spend on things. Every time I buy something now I think of how it's probably going to be in my house when I get married. I also dream of that often, as well. There are so many exciting things in store for the future.

It can be very scary to think about and try to plan for but when I look at all of the things I have gotten through and all of the people who are here for me my fears leave. Bring it on.